being boring

where do I go from here?
or am I just like a clock spinning round?
everything seems unclear
confusion is raising its head and I can't make a sound

I feel it
tearing at my soul while I'm asleep
I feel it
driving me to something I'll regret

what if I make the change?
what if I loose all my courage this time?
everything seems so strange
try but I can't seem to make a decision that's right

I feel it
pounding like a drum inside my brain
I feel it
if it doesn't stop I'll go insane

State of Mind - Merril Bainbridge